Just wanted to write something for a fallen brother.  Kevin James Magee you are a dear friend you you will be missed.  But if you can hear me build me a kitchen up there and we can cook like old times.  Lit fire crackers and shit like we use to do.  So many memories I will share with my kids.  You will never be forgetten.  I LOVE YOU MAN.  January 2, 2006.

RyAn KyLe MeKeL # 8

I don' t really understand life anymore.  Love is such a strong word.  But it means so many different things.  I sit in bed after having the worst weekend ever and pray to god to make everything right again.  Crying to him not to take another person from me.  I really don't pray often unless I really need something.  So you know he should be there for me to help me out.  I try my best not to make fun of people and help people as best that I can and I get nothing in change.  I work my ass off to get money to help my family and nothing ever gets back to me.  I found someone that I could come back to at night and talk to and make my day great.  Always putting a smile on my face.  Telling her everything about you and knowing she wouldn't say shit to anyone else.  Crying in front of her when you lose someone you love.  Well I lost that and now there is nobody there.  Noone to cry on or cheer me up when I am down.  I don't know what to do.  Maybe this is something god wanted me to do.  Maybe something good will come.  I really don't see it because I was so happy with what I had.  I hate myself.  Everything I do is wrong.  One girls says I am moving to slow the other its to fast.  I don't know what to do.  But I know this everytime I said "I LOVE YOU" I really meant it.  Whatever thoughts words meant I meant it.  To me it probably means something totally different and I am sorry GOD I missed up again.  But I am going to keep my head high and hope something happens soon like a sigh of some sort. 

If you want to know what I think "LOVE" means.  It means having someone you care about there for you to listen to what they have to say.  Not always being with them 24/7 but knowing if you need them they are there.  Even if they live 2 blocks from you or 2 hours from you.  Its that feeling you have in your stomach when you are around them that never goes away.  Its like butterflies but something even more.  And maybe even share your life with in the future.  Thats what I think "LOVE" means. 

Comments Me If You Think It Means Something Different.  I really want to know if I am right or not.

RyAn KyLe MeKeL # 8

N'Sync - God Must Of Spent A Little More Time On You 

Can this be true?
Tell me can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?

Never thought that love could feel like this
And you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel
It's a miracle

Your love is like a river,
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true,
God must have spent a little more time on you

In all of creations all things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold when you came in this world

And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Makes me purified

Your love is like a river,
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that its true,
God must have spent a little more time on you

Never thought that love could feel like this
And you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me?
There's an angel
It's a miracle

Your love is like a river,
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that its true,
God must have spent a little more time on you
God must have spent a little more time...
On you

I have falling in Love with the girl of my dreams.  I LOVE YOU LAUREN ASHLEY!!!

As you might know, the head of a company survived

9/11 because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was his

Turn to bring the donuts.

One woman was late because her alarm clock

Did not go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike because

Of an auto accident.

One of them missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take  time  to change.

One’s car wouldn’t start.

One went back to answer the telephone.

One had a child that dawdled and didn’t get ready as soon

As he should have.

One couldn’t get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man who put on a new pair of

Shoes that morning, took the various means to get to work but

Before he got there, developed a blister on his foot.  He stopped

At a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.  That is why he is alive today.

Now when I am stuck in traffic, miss an elevator, and turn back to

Answer a ringing telephone…………..

All the little things that ANNOY me.

I think to myself, this is exactly where GOD wants me to at this very moment…

Next time your morning seems to be going wrong, the children are slow getting

Dresses, you can’t seem to find the car keys, you hit every traffic light,

Don’t get mad or frustrated: God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you with all those ANNOYING little things and

May you remember their purpose?

MAKES YOU THINK A LITTLE BIT!!!

RyAn # 8

This is the last time I am updating if noone leaves me comments!!!

Marcoas Hernandez - If You Were Mine

If you were mine
I’d be your everything
and you’d be the only thing
that I would ever need
if you were mine
I would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want. Ohhhh yeah.

Everything I dream about
everything I talk about
one thing I cant live without
I wanna get closer to you
cant stand being far away
knowing that you don’t feel the same way
watching him bring tears to your eyes

If you were mine
I’d be your everything
and you’d be the only thing
that I would ever need
if you were mine
I would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want. Ohhhh yeah.

All the words I sing about
all the letters I write about
the only thing I want to hear about
is when I get closer to you
I know there’s someone else
but he is only thinking of himself
doesn’t make any sense
for you to be lonely

If you were mine
I’d be your everything
and you’d be the only thing
that I would ever need
if you were mine
I would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want. Ohhhh yeah

Let me be the one you share your hopes and dreams with
you’ll never be alone again cause I will hold you endlessly
please don’t be afraid to let your broken heart guide you
into these open arms that long to surround you, baby

If you were mine
I’d be your everything
and you’d be the only thing
that I would ever need
if you were mine
I would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want. Ohhhh yeah.

If you were mine
I’d be your everything
and you’d be the only thing
that I would ever need
if you were mine
I would tell everyone
that you are the only one
that I could ever want. Ohhhh yeah.